The Voice

What is it with the big trees and old people?

Sometimes people who close to us aren't we think they would be. That means a lot of things change, or not change - maybe we just don't know it.

And sometimes people who close to us are the ones who are capable of hurting us the most. It won't go easy, but it makes you think. 

In times like this, I figure that it would be easy to change it, to make them understand the perspective which I've had, the paradigm which shifts constantly, every thing. But, no, unfortunately, that's not gonna happen.

It will take some time. And most likely, it will depend on their characters as well.

That when people put some comments and comparison on the "the bigger the tree, the more difficult for you to cut it all from the roots." - It applies to human beings too. The older they are, the more difficult for young people to express their opinions to them. When young people stand to their opinion, it could hurt the older people's pride. So, it's all about ego. Suprise, surprise.

And guess who's bothered with that kind of example? Yup. Me.

What is it with people who stick with their beliefs without knowing that changes are all around them? That each person has each thought and a very specific opinion about something. Is that wrong? Is that not wrong? What are you supposedly to do? Are you just going to scream it out? Or you just want to shut up in order to make those people understand that we just want to appreciated, and be heard. Not be judged.

What is it with people who are too stubborn to see it?

I just don't get what it is actually the purpose of my existence if I'm not allowed to make a voice, to make a difference? To just make people listen to me. Is it because I'm just a female? I'm still young?

You tell me. Cause I'm freaking hate to think that I still don't know what I'm supposed to do right now. What is the purpose? Anyone can tell me?

Once Upon A Time... I May Have Met A Backstabber.

Satu waktu ketika menyadari bahwa ada "musuh dalam selimut" di dalam hidupmu, dan selama ini begitu bodohnya bercerita tentang semuanya pada orang itu.

"The backstabber" - I may have called it.

Ternyata gak gampang mencari seorang teman baik, yang ikhlas berteman dengan kita, yang tidak segampang itu menimbulkan permusuhan dengan temannya sendiri. 

Satu hal yang disadari, bahwa orang ini tidak cukup dewasa untuk menilai bahwa dirinya yang salah, telah mencampuri hidup orang lain, tanpa sadar bahwa dia sendiri tidak becus mengurus hidupnya.

Aku hanya bisa mendoakan semoga dia bisa mendapat hidayah untuk tidak mengulangi perbuatannya, dan menyadari bahwa dia harus segera minta maaf setulus-tulusnya kepada orang-orang yang sudah dia sakiti, jika dia ingin bahagia dalam hidupnya.

Grant Gustin in 'The Flesh'?

I don't know why the more I'm watching Grant Gustin in The Flash, the cuter he seems?



You see what I mean?

I didn't even ship him in Glee back then. Maybe because he was just another weird guy who loves singing and dancing. And I wasn't impressed at all.

But now? Oh wow. It's like you've been knowing someone for so long, you forget how special they actually are in your heart. Nope, I'm not talking about Iris West and Barry Allen. I'm talking about me and Grant Gustin. And, no, I don't know him. I'm just an ordinary girl from another universe (no pun intended - I'm not a girl from Earth-2 or Earth-3, or any Earth-something, for all I care) which he couldn't careless about.

I'm not sure what is it that's from him could attract me? Maybe his slenderness? Even his sense of fashion kicks me in the heart. It's like, "that's my type of outfit, if I have a boyfriend/husband!" - and it's kicking me. Hard.

Simple. Attractive. Effortless.



What's not to like? Shirt behind the sweater? Jeans? The jacket? And sneakers? You're killing me, Gustin!

And also, I think I might consider his posture too. He, I can say, a slender guy. And tall. And I like that kind of guy. I think I've always find the 'tall factor' as a sense of 'protective guy'.

I can't even say that he's cute. His face is just... different. If cuteness has several types, it might be included in 'I'm-nerd-and-not-too-cute-but-you-will-like-me-anyway' kind of thing.

I'll put comments about The Flash (Season 2, in particular) in my next blog later. In the meantime, I will just enjoy seeing Gustin in it. :)

Between Captain America, Peggy Carter, and Sharon Carter

Do you know what's the first thing that came in mind when I watched Steve Rogers and Sharon Carter shared a kiss in Captain America: Civil War? It's cute! - to be honest.

I ship them both. 

Not that I don't like Steve with Peggy when they both shared the same thing in Captain America: The First Avenger. It's just... Steve needs to move on. And mind the bond thing between Peggy and Sharon, the fact that they both are aunt and niece! 

So, I just a bit disappointed when I read Hayley Atwell's comment when she was asked about this some time ago, as shown below: 

(source: http://www.cinemablend.com/new/Hayley-Atwell-Issue-With-Captain-America-Agent-13-Kiss-Civil-War-135197.html)

Steve deserves love. He's been working so hard to defend America, to fight over his idealism, and he's been sacrificing everything, losing everything - including the dance that he promised to Peggy before the plane crashed into the iceberg (Captain America: The First Avenger - spoiler alert!).

Why does she need to be rude? 

In my opinion, in relate to Peggy-Sharon relative thing, it has nothing to do with the incestuous boundary - for Steve Rogers. He doesn't share the same blood as those two, so what kind of incestuous boundary that we talk about? He's not their relative. End of story.

And remember that Steve and Sharon had met in Captain America: The Winter Soldier. Steve didn't even know that 'Kate' (the alias that Sharon used at the moment) was a Carter! Even relates to Peggy! And they both had fallen for each other from the first meeting! Why blame them?

If Peggy was wise enough, she would've understood that Steve needs to be happy, even if it's not with her. 

But, yeah, I know. This is Hayley's speaking. Not Peggy's. I really like Hayley Atwell, personally. To me, she's a witty and charming person. I was crushed when I found out that Agent Carter was being cancelled. I hope there will any other development for the film/movie in the future, so we can see Agent Carter/Hayley Atwell again!

Also, I'm kind of hoping that MCU will develop more about the love story between Steve and Sharon. I just don't get why they won't show Agent 13's abilities and skills to the world so far? Why only Black Widow? Does this has something to do with movie business, or the contract whatsoever? 

Please, PLEASE, make it happen! Make the love story for Steve-Sharon in the upcoming movies!

Is it too much to fulfill the request? Is it forbidden for a fan to ask for this?

Witches of East End

Spoilers Alert!

I had watched all the ten episodes, and for the fantasy-genre TV serial, it's not bad!

But what I gathered for my perspective that:
1. Funny that they mentioned Ingrid was supposed to be the smart, intelligent one, and yet she made mistakes, TWICE! And for her defense, she said that she already read the 'instructions' based on the book! Which, caused his boyfriend bleeding to death, and conjured his spirit so they could be together. Still, they said Ingrid was the intelligent one? Oh please!

2. For the rebellious type, Freya seems smarter and more mature. I love her more!

3. Isn't it strange that Aunt Wendy was too easy to die? Isn't she supposed to be more experienced when it comes to handle the shifter? As how to detect them, or sense them, or whatever? And by the end of season 1, she only has one life left! Does it mean that she's possibly can be dead at the middle of the story?

4. The girls need practice! If you watch it, please tell me... Which parts that they did that? Weren't the mother already approved for the girls to use their powers? This is really a big question mark.

5. Nothing is wrong with Dash and Killian, except... how can they have powers? As far as I'm concerned, they are not witches.

I haven't read the books, so I cannot know which one is better, or more loveable.

But I'm looking forward to watching the upcoming season. Hopefully it'll be more exciting!

Kuinginkan dan Kubutuhkan

I'm not very proud of this.

Tapi aku sedang mengalami fase disorientasi, terjebak antara apa yang aku inginkan dan apa yang aku butuhkan.

Hidup ini tidak pernah mudah. Aku tahu, hidup ini seperti belantara luas yang tidak cukup berbekalkan secarik peta dan kompas, namun juga pengalaman dan pelajaran yang terpetik.

Di saat posisi karirku yang sedang berada di atas, terkadang aku merenung, bahkan mendesah, untuk meyakinkan diri.

"Apakah ini yang aku mau?"

"Can we do something that we really like?"

Aku suka dengan pekerjaanku sekarang, hanya saja di setiap elemen waktu, terketuk hatiku untuk mencari yang lain, yang bisa memuaskan batinku.

Bolehkah aku berharap? Aku tahu aku terdengar egois, tapi aku tidak tahu apa yang harus kulakukan. Di antara enigma dan dogmatis yang bersisian, aku memilih untuk merancang idealismeku. Yang mungkin akan membuat orang-orang mengerutkan kening, tidak percaya.

Aku masih terus berdoa, dan berharap. Bahwa suatu hari nanti akan ada saatnya buatku memanjakan diri dengan segala kesukaanku, favoritku, dan tidak perlu takut untuk menghabiskan waktu di dalamnya. 

Pelajaran kali ini yang harus aku raih adalah kesabaran. Bersabar untuk meraih apa yang aku impikan.

Notes of the day.

Something Borrowed

This is the most realistic movie I've ever seen. 

It was adopted from a book with the same title (authored by Emily Giffin). It tells the friendship between Rachel and Darcy, and the complicated feeling from Rachel towards Dex, since Dex was Darcy's fiance. 

The storyline went smooth, and the flashbacks were plotted on the right tracks. If you really pay attention to the story, you can feel a mixed feeling, between love and hatred, towards Rachel and Darcy as well.

They both are just human beings, who are not perfect, and can be selfish too. Rachel had been hiding her feeling all the time, because she didn't wanna hurt Darcy. And Darcy was completely happy as she would be a charming bride to her good-looking and sexy fiance, Dex. She thought that everything under control, until she found out what really happened.

If the infidelity was not the only conflict which should be underlined from this story, well, I'd say there are others. Other things that we can conclude of. The friendship that was tested, the unexpected betrayal, etc. And in the end, we just have to accept that this is how people gonna react in the real life.

The problem was cliche, but the resolution of the plot, was charmingly realistic. That is why I gave 5 out of 5 stars to this movie.

I also read in the internet that it has a sequel called 'Something Blue'. I cannot wait to watch it (if it plans to be adopted to a movie!). 

It is a recommended movie. :)